I think I need to go offline for a while. Somewhere between blogging, scrolling, creating and constantly thinking about what comes next, I lost track of who I am when nobody’s watching. So I’m logging off a little and trying to find her again.

A personal reflection on surviving the foster care system, moving through homes that never felt like home, spending my Sweet 16 in a new placement, and how anime and writing fanfiction gave me somewhere safe to exist when real life wouldn’t stay still.

Feeling like a stranger in your own family is a weird kind of grief. This one is about being raised by my grandparents, losing the thread after my grandma passed, and learning that being related is not the same as being known.

I saw something on TikTok that hit harder than expected: don’t break your heart trying to protect others. This is about overgiving, expecting yourself from other people, and learning that not everyone is built with the same level of care you are.

I keep asking myself who I’d be without the trauma. Without the loss, the foster homes, the abandonment, the versions of me that had to survive too early. This isn’t a polished answer. It’s me sitting with the question and not looking away.

I’ve spent my life feeling like my ambition and my brain were at odds. This is me unpacking what it’s like to be a Capricorn with ADHD and autism, unlearning burnout, and redefining what success actually looks like.

An honest, slightly unfiltered reflection on wanting to be known—not for fame, but for impact. Written right before my 35th birthday, this piece unpacks legacy, creativity, writing a book, and admitting the quiet hope that maybe something I make will last.

A reflective deep dive into a vivid dream where I experienced my own symbolic “death.” Exploring the mattress, decomposition, and strange calm that followed, this post unpacks what endings, transformation, and subconscious shifts can really mean.